Tuesday, April 28, 2009
The Boiler Room
The Boiler Room
Last friday brought sister JAMIE to meet JON & Co.
Had Hanabi at Odeon Towers with Calyn, Peter, Jonathan, Jamie & me. Food wasn't too bad. But given the price; I'd go for Kuishin-Bo's buffet anytime! Much more worth it; besides food is served HOTTT!! (: Not that the food wasn't hot, but not as hot can.. Frankly speaking, the rice served at Hanabi super duper delicious! Made me keep ordering rices. Haha!
Thereafter joined Jonathan's colleagues at EM Bar at River Valley. Didn't even know sucha place existed. :X I wonder is i sua ku or simply that place's not famous. I think it's the latter. LOL! Had some authentic whiskey. But the name of the alcohol wasn't heard of. (-.-")
After which; Jonathan, Peter, Andrew, Jamie & me headed to The Boiler Room at St. James. Clarence and Vivien went to Partyworld to sing. Kinda feeling guilty for leaving them alone, but no choice mah. Haha! They didn't wanna join us. We had fun that night. Stayed over at sis's place. Long time didn't go her place sort of miss all the times i had there. Anw, sis's mum was nice to buy me breakfast in the morning. (: THANKS MUMMY! Haha!
For photos; click this link!
Looking forward to meet the girls on Thursday night! Woo-Hoo! Friday night booked for KTV, mahjong & booze! Guys whom wanna meet gotta wait another week. :P
Had Hanabi at Odeon Towers with Calyn, Peter, Jonathan, Jamie & me. Food wasn't too bad. But given the price; I'd go for Kuishin-Bo's buffet anytime! Much more worth it; besides food is served HOTTT!! (: Not that the food wasn't hot, but not as hot can.. Frankly speaking, the rice served at Hanabi super duper delicious! Made me keep ordering rices. Haha!
Thereafter joined Jonathan's colleagues at EM Bar at River Valley. Didn't even know sucha place existed. :X I wonder is i sua ku or simply that place's not famous. I think it's the latter. LOL! Had some authentic whiskey. But the name of the alcohol wasn't heard of. (-.-")
After which; Jonathan, Peter, Andrew, Jamie & me headed to The Boiler Room at St. James. Clarence and Vivien went to Partyworld to sing. Kinda feeling guilty for leaving them alone, but no choice mah. Haha! They didn't wanna join us. We had fun that night. Stayed over at sis's place. Long time didn't go her place sort of miss all the times i had there. Anw, sis's mum was nice to buy me breakfast in the morning. (: THANKS MUMMY! Haha!
For photos; click this link!
Looking forward to meet the girls on Thursday night! Woo-Hoo! Friday night booked for KTV, mahjong & booze! Guys whom wanna meet gotta wait another week. :P
undermyskin ♥ , 8:35 AM.
Monday, April 20, 2009
I'll Miss You
I'll Miss You
Heard news of you leaving soon.. I can't help but feel lost, depressed and behaving like a little girl deep down without your knowledge. Perhaps you can sense how i feel deep within; perhaps you'll do something to make me feel all better on the surface; perhaps you'll simply not care regardless what happens.
Like you always say; even if the sky falls, you'll just treat it like a blanket to cover all your fears and problems. I'm not so brave, I can't do it the way you want me to nor do it the way you do it. I've realised I'm not as ready to let go as you could've.
"I don't want you to know, so I try to be strong. I don't want you to think that without you, I can't go on. But that's how it is, and that's how it will be, because, I love you, I need you, I miss you, and without you, there's just no me."
You don't know how much i love you, you don't know how much i care and worry about you, you don't know how much i'm willing to sacrifice just for you, you don't know how much it means to me just a simple gesture of care you're willing to shower on me, you don't know how much you really mean to me.
Now that you're leaving, i sincerely wish you all the best. I know it's best for you that you leave, but i can't help but to feel helpless and dejected deep down.
Tell me what to do sweetheart, tell me you love me as much as i do, tell me everything will be fine and that you're always there for me, tell me you can't do without me either, tell me you won't be leaving after all, tell me you'll stay just for me. I'm waiting for a miracle to happen, i'm waiting for god to shower his love for me.
This last letter; I dedicate to you:
Dear Sweetheart,
The first day we allowed our hearts to come out to each other. The first time you told me to consider your proposal. The first experience being with you altogether; I still remember. For you I told myself to break the barrier around my heart. For you I learnt to love someone though I've been hurt deeply before. For you I told myself it's all worth it regardless what the final outcome would be; I'm willing. You always make sure I go home happy. You always make sure I'm being kept smiling throughout when I'm with you. You always make sure I never have enough of your hugs and kisses; This I feel loved.
But at this point in time, barely 5 weeks we've been together you're telling me you're leaving. You're telling me our love can withstand the test of time. You're telling me it's just a test that god has put us through. All I wanna know is if you've loved me? Sometimes I'm really in a dillemma. You seem to love me more than I do, you seem to really care for me, you seem to show me another side of you. Sometimes I wonder if it's all a facade, sometimes I wonder if you're just toying with me, sometimes I wonder if things will ever be the same after you're gone.
We're both surrounded by possibilities of choice; open doors and wide horizons; which i know may come between us. But i also hope that they could eventually bring us back together again. For now I'm carrying mixed feelings deep within; maybe and maybe not. You're all that I see, you're all that I hear, you're all that I wanna touch, you're all that I yearn for.
I lay awake sometimes in the night; having difficulty falling asleep. That's because I miss you so much. I lay awake sometimes in the night; crying myself to sleep. That's because I wish things between us were much simpler. I lay awake sometimes in the night; not wanting the night to end. That's because I want time to stand still each and every moment when I'm with you.
I know it's time to let go. I know you won't hurt as much as I do. All the good memories we've had together, I'll never forget them. The past 5 weeks have been wonderful and amazing. I thought I wouldn't know someone like you whom attends to my each and every need. I thought I wouldn't fall in love so quickly again. I thought I wouldn't smile so happily. It was because I knew of your existence; that I'm smiling myself silly. - I'll never forget.
P.S: I LOVE YOU.
Like you always say; even if the sky falls, you'll just treat it like a blanket to cover all your fears and problems. I'm not so brave, I can't do it the way you want me to nor do it the way you do it. I've realised I'm not as ready to let go as you could've.
"I don't want you to know, so I try to be strong. I don't want you to think that without you, I can't go on. But that's how it is, and that's how it will be, because, I love you, I need you, I miss you, and without you, there's just no me."
You don't know how much i love you, you don't know how much i care and worry about you, you don't know how much i'm willing to sacrifice just for you, you don't know how much it means to me just a simple gesture of care you're willing to shower on me, you don't know how much you really mean to me.
Now that you're leaving, i sincerely wish you all the best. I know it's best for you that you leave, but i can't help but to feel helpless and dejected deep down.
Tell me what to do sweetheart, tell me you love me as much as i do, tell me everything will be fine and that you're always there for me, tell me you can't do without me either, tell me you won't be leaving after all, tell me you'll stay just for me. I'm waiting for a miracle to happen, i'm waiting for god to shower his love for me.
This last letter; I dedicate to you:
Dear Sweetheart,
The first day we allowed our hearts to come out to each other. The first time you told me to consider your proposal. The first experience being with you altogether; I still remember. For you I told myself to break the barrier around my heart. For you I learnt to love someone though I've been hurt deeply before. For you I told myself it's all worth it regardless what the final outcome would be; I'm willing. You always make sure I go home happy. You always make sure I'm being kept smiling throughout when I'm with you. You always make sure I never have enough of your hugs and kisses; This I feel loved.
But at this point in time, barely 5 weeks we've been together you're telling me you're leaving. You're telling me our love can withstand the test of time. You're telling me it's just a test that god has put us through. All I wanna know is if you've loved me? Sometimes I'm really in a dillemma. You seem to love me more than I do, you seem to really care for me, you seem to show me another side of you. Sometimes I wonder if it's all a facade, sometimes I wonder if you're just toying with me, sometimes I wonder if things will ever be the same after you're gone.
We're both surrounded by possibilities of choice; open doors and wide horizons; which i know may come between us. But i also hope that they could eventually bring us back together again. For now I'm carrying mixed feelings deep within; maybe and maybe not. You're all that I see, you're all that I hear, you're all that I wanna touch, you're all that I yearn for.
I lay awake sometimes in the night; having difficulty falling asleep. That's because I miss you so much. I lay awake sometimes in the night; crying myself to sleep. That's because I wish things between us were much simpler. I lay awake sometimes in the night; not wanting the night to end. That's because I want time to stand still each and every moment when I'm with you.
I know it's time to let go. I know you won't hurt as much as I do. All the good memories we've had together, I'll never forget them. The past 5 weeks have been wonderful and amazing. I thought I wouldn't know someone like you whom attends to my each and every need. I thought I wouldn't fall in love so quickly again. I thought I wouldn't smile so happily. It was because I knew of your existence; that I'm smiling myself silly. - I'll never forget.
P.S: I LOVE YOU.
undermyskin ♥ , 10:00 AM.
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
Emotional
Emotional
Haven't updated in ages. Super lazy to blog. Ever since i've started work. :/
Same old routine; work, home, dinner, sleep. Super boring please.
Looking at how many of my friends have gained their license tempts me to get one too! Though BBDC is just a few bus stops away from my place, i'm just super lazy to get my butt moving there. Upon realisation, realised i still like to be driven around than to drive others around.
Anyway, things are so tensed up at home. I guess it's the work stress that's getting everyone on their nerves. I get scolded for nothing when i'm home, when i'm at work. Thank god for the company of friends & that someone special. (: Else i'll really breakdown?
Nothing much to update; just a little bit of booze & dinners out with YuTing & Co. lately.
I yearn for a better future, for a better relationship.
I yearn to call you my one & only.
I yearn for more hugs & kisses from you.
I yearn for more of you love, care & concern.
I yearn to be able to be seen everywhere with you regardless in front of whoever.
I yearn for a serious, stable relationship.
I yearn to be called your baby.
I'm falling, slowly, unknowingly in love with you.
You're one special person i cannot deny that makes me happy.
You're one special person i'm afraid of falling in love with.
You're one special person i don't wanna lose.
But i've never allowed you to step fully into my broken lonely heart. I've never let you known deep down i really care. I've never let you known how much i feel for you. I still create a barrier around my heart. I afraid of getting hurt. Things are not as simplified as we all think it is. How i wish things could've been easier to comprehend. How i wish things were as clear as water.
Same old routine; work, home, dinner, sleep. Super boring please.
Looking at how many of my friends have gained their license tempts me to get one too! Though BBDC is just a few bus stops away from my place, i'm just super lazy to get my butt moving there. Upon realisation, realised i still like to be driven around than to drive others around.
Anyway, things are so tensed up at home. I guess it's the work stress that's getting everyone on their nerves. I get scolded for nothing when i'm home, when i'm at work. Thank god for the company of friends & that someone special. (: Else i'll really breakdown?
Nothing much to update; just a little bit of booze & dinners out with YuTing & Co. lately.
I yearn for a better future, for a better relationship.
I yearn to call you my one & only.
I yearn for more hugs & kisses from you.
I yearn for more of you love, care & concern.
I yearn to be able to be seen everywhere with you regardless in front of whoever.
I yearn for a serious, stable relationship.
I yearn to be called your baby.
I'm falling, slowly, unknowingly in love with you.
You're one special person i cannot deny that makes me happy.
You're one special person i'm afraid of falling in love with.
You're one special person i don't wanna lose.
But i've never allowed you to step fully into my broken lonely heart. I've never let you known deep down i really care. I've never let you known how much i feel for you. I still create a barrier around my heart. I afraid of getting hurt. Things are not as simplified as we all think it is. How i wish things could've been easier to comprehend. How i wish things were as clear as water.
undermyskin ♥ , 2:45 PM.
